I have been thinking a lot about what I tell myself I can and can't do in my life. I was busy raising children, I was busy volunteering at my school and church, I was busy taking care of the yard, the house, the dog and so on.......I was too busy to take some time for my dreams and aspirations. I told myself that I had other things that made a bigger difference than me taking a class or studying a new skill. I felt myself going through motions each day not looking forward to something.
I realized that ATTITUDE was a huge part of my problem. I wanted a balance in my life to fit everything in and be content and happy each day. I read this quote today and found it so profound for me:
"Attitude, to me is more important than the past......than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skill. I t will make or break a company, a church, a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day." by Charles Swindoll
I realize that all those small details in life were adding up to my discontentment. I want to show my girls how to be happy when you had only 4 hours of sleep or had to go on a field trip with 120 4th graders for 6 hours in the pouring rain or sewing up halloween costumes the day of halloween. I want to embrace my life, my circumstances and show joy each day and gratitude for where I live and the free time I do have to do what I love. When I share my abilities to others it feels so good! I know I can't spend 24 hours a day creating art but I can find an hour here and there and that is okay.
Try, try, try......